Sexuality
What is it about sexuality that gives us such a hard time?
As sexuality is part of our nature, it can not be denied, but yet it seems to keep us tied to guilt.
We seem to be utterly confused on how to handle (our own) sexuality, most of the time we try to suppress, deny, hide, or ignore it …….. but it is there, all of the time, …….
Willingly or unwillingly we are being confronted with our own sexuality, we can “see” it everywhere, if not we can “project” it on whatever we see ……
To me, sexuality has become the profound vehicle of guilt.
Is there really guilt imbedded in our sexual nature?
This seemingly imbedded guilt makes me want to turn away from it, it becomes a taboo, a dark place of denial, but …… it still is part of my nature, so now I am trying to deny a part of myself …… then, the natural need, becomes so heavy that it transforms in “an urge” …… with a narrowing vision and a negative ring to it ….
Our natural need, which is pure, gets hijacked by guilt because we fear it. The very fear for our sexuality feeds guilt.
What does guilt do? Where does it come from?
Guilt doesn’t want to be recognised, so it uses a (our) weak spot to divert our attention.
It wants us to belief that our sexuality is the source of our guilt, and because we do not want to look properly, because we fear it, it succeeds most of the time taking us by surprise and throwing us of balance ……
Guilt and fear, they are the same, they are the source of our confusion, the source of our feel of loss, the source of our inadequacy, they are a misconception of what we truly are …
Any misconception can be corrected if we allow ourselves to forgive …… fear dissolves when looked at :-)
